Musings on Journaling and Life in General...Good grief

Me, hiking on Blood Mountain, AT 10-25-06

I'm finding keeping an online journal as challenging as keeping a hardcopy journal. I have frustration with the actual keeping up of a journal, so why would I find online journaling any different? No idea...

I suppose my journaling is reflective of my life, in more ways than the obvious recording of thoughts, ideas, happenings, etc. When my life is out of balance, or busy busy busy, I find it difficult to even think in creative terms. This has always been something of a challenge to me, balance, in the way that I like to have a full and rich life, but too much and there's no room for down time, creative time, reading to the kiddos, puttering, painting my wall, reading, and all the other things that bring joy. Journaling and reflective thinking are included in that list. As I continue to attempt journaling, as I still want a record, a place to put all of these thoughts, I find that I must find acceptance with things just as they are, whether I feel that I'm behind or even right on track.

I aspire to less, less unhappiness, less work, less frustration, less negative thoughts. I aspire to more, more time alone, more time for creative pursuits, more time in nature, more time home, more time just being, more time thinking thoughts that are nurturing and nourishing.

Life is a paradox.